Resolutions: To Make or Not to Make?

Catching up on The Pagan Experience:  Week 1 (a couple of weeks late)

Writing Prompt for January 5:  Resolutions

What are your intentions for this new year?  How will you find the resolve to bring them into your manifest life?  

Let me begin by saying that I've never really made your typical "New Year's Resolution(s)."  For starters, I can barely plan a week ahead in time, let alone an entire year ahead.  (Maybe that's something to put on the list, eh?)  Even making a 30-day commitment to a set of small, self-improvement activities is proving to be challenging, and...let me check:  I'm barely a week in.  Not doing so hot.  Also, I have set a few financial and personal goals in the past, but nothing ever really comes to fruition, and then I end up worrying that I'm setting the bar too high for myself, which in-turn leads to me disappointedly saying "eff this mess."  (Pessimist much?!)  

I can't say that I am a stalwart adherent to the Law of Attraction, but I do believe it holds weight, and I also know that my thoughts are often of the self-sabotaging variety.  

Disclaimer aside, I will try to lay out my basic "intentions" for 2015 in this post.  In bold you will see the bare-bones, generic-sounding intentions, but I will try to expound on them a bit. 

Intention #1:  Be the best me that I can be.
-Be the best wife and mother I can be.  (Those two things could take up their own blog post or twenty.)
-Be healthy (eat better, exercise more), but also don't beat myself up for those occasional poor choices.
-Work harder and be a lot more on-top-of-things at my job than in the past (I feel like I half-ass a lot of stuff, and I need to STAHP IT).  
-Make more time for myself to do "me things."  Reading, writing, sewing, peeing without a toddler trying to climb on my lap.
-Grow my business?  (Is it bad to put a question mark at the end of a goal?)
-QUIT SELF-SABOTAGING (with that darn upspeak I just did).  

Intention #2:  Get back into a better place with my spirituality and practice.
-Study (which I've already been doing a little bit of...yay!).
-Meditate.
-Do shadow work (marriage seems to be aiding me in this, actually).
-Journal (working on it).
-Divine (just work with my Tarot more, in general).
-Blog (working on it).
-PRACTICE (gosh, it's been a while!).  
-Also:  Because I now live only a couple/few hours from it, I want to attend an event at Circle Sanctuary.  *crosses fingers*
-More on Intention #2:  I've really fallen away from the Pagan world in the last couple of years, and though I have missed it very much, it's only been in the last month or so that I've really felt the call to do something about it.  I miss my online Pagan community, because, let's face it:  most of us don't have a physical place where we can regularly (as in, more than a few times a year) meet up and discuss our spiritual practices, beliefs, etc. with people of similar mindsets.  (If you do, then consider yourself lucky!)  For us, that place basically has to be online.  (Although, I also don't want to get to a place where I start to associate my spiritual practice too much with being online, but I'm sure somebody will stop me if I get out of control...again, that's another post.)  


I am pretty positive that all of these things will feed into one another, because that's how they tend to be now.  I know from previous experience that I am more productive (and probably easier to be around) when I'm healthy in mind, body, and spirit.  I should probably make Intention #3:  SLEEP.  A working mother without sleep is not a thing to be in 2015!  Sleep = energy.  Energy = clarity +focus. Clarity + focus = achieving my goals.

Here's to catching some ZzzzZzzzZzzz's in the next twelve months!!! :D

P.L.
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Let's Try This Again....

Well, that was quite the hiatus!  Two years and no blogging for La Panda.  So much has happened since you last heard from me, and during that time I kept telling myself that I was going to participate in The Pagan Blog Project.  We see how that turned out, eh?  A few weeks ago I started feeling super-Pagan, and thought I'd get to writing on my blog again.  "Aha!  The New Year is a perfect time to start the Blog Project!" I thought.  However, when I went to the page, I was saddened to see that it's time had come to an end, but luckily, after a quick Google search, I happened upon The Pagan Experience.  This is looking like it might be a good fit for me, so here I am, giving 'er a try.

Before I make a TPE post, I'd just like to update the world about what's been going on en mi vida.  Long story short:  I moved to another state, hung out with my "friend" who'd lived next door to me when we were in high school, felt more than I've ever felt before, broke up with my boyfriend, and decided to spend the rest of my live-long life with Neighbor Boy.  That said, I married the love of my life (I think I'll just go ahead and say it:  "Twin Flame") two summers ago, and now we are the happy parents of a six-year old and a one-year old.  I love my little family beyond measure!

As far as being Pagan is concerned, well...I've stayed Pagan and (somewhat) maintained this blog's Facebook page, but that's about it.  Getting married and becoming a mother times two has resulted in me unintentionally straying from my path, as well as communing online with other Pagans, and I sorely miss everything I used to do.  My blogging and YouTube videos came to a pretty abrupt halt, although the latter was less because of family and more for reasons related to the possible repercussions of my threatening my day job by showing my Pagan face in public.

Also, the members of my marriage are still getting used to being an "interfaith couple."  I am finally, very slowwwwly working up my courage to be comfortable with my religion and anything that might entail--be it blogging, journaling, lighting candles, smudging, or anything else witchy--in front of my husband.  Our differing beliefs are definitely a topic for a totally different day, but suffice it to say that while we are accepting of one another's religious choices, sometimes I think we both think the other party is a bit kooky.  (I can live with that though--everybody's a little kooky! ;) )

Anyway, this is probably enough catching up for now.  I just wanted to let you all know that this Pagan Mama is still here and that she's ready to start communicating with the outside world again.

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P.L. the P.M.